Roles

The role of the designer/creator

is one geared toward self-expression

but also (important to note) geared to the whole of the other

the needs

of the other

achieving both is a robust and

challenging intention

and doable-yes.

after all, a designer brings his/her

rawest self to the experience-

so that the other can bring his/her

entire experience and whole human form

to it, too.

Might be right.

If it feels weird, how do you not know that it isn’t right?

Story:

Driving in the van en route to NCAA finals at Ohio State. I mentioned I was nervous, as I was seated 1st and had some lofty expectations on my shoulders (both self-imposed and from external sources). Gemma Spofforth (British woman Olympian badass) asked me how I felt.

I said I felt heavy, tired, shitty, that “in the past” that meant I’d swim like shit.

She then said- but what if this time, this time, it means it is right?

I then broke the American Record and won NCAA’s.

Just because it has felt a certain way before doesn’t mean the outcome will be the same.

Responsibility

You know what, Caro?

taking responsibility and control

of your life is a gift-

and you are loved just the same,

deeply.

It feels good to read that.

a pattern i’ve held onto is one of apologizing and feeling unworthy of stepping into my power in my life-

for me to stop apologizing for wanting things for my best self feels odd.

so that is my intention. I am no longer a product of my excuses,

I am the action.